I Feel the Need

I am so overcome with a need to write. A lot has happened in the last month, I'm not sure where to even start.
"He" has taken the ending of our "relationship" rather well. He hasn't pressed where he shouldn't and he's given me the space I've requested. What's better - I'm not missing him like I thought I might. I guess I knew in my heart that when things got started between us for the second time, they weren't going to be any better than they were the first time. I was just hopeful that we would work - because I did care.
But when life closes a door it always opens a window. That's where Chad fits in. So crazy how fate can bring people into your life just when you need them most. It's even more insane considering my past with Chad. I'm still waiting for him hit me with the punch line - confess that our talk is all a big joke on me. But then, why would a GUY invest time, energy, and money into a relationship (or potential relationship) if he's not getting any in the process?
By the way things are looking he should be moving down here around the first of the year. If for some reason it doesn't work that way, he's flying me home for New Years. That's a $300 plane trip. $300 for a bootie call? I don't think so.
That's why I'm convinced that this thing with us is going to work. He wants it as much as I do. And NEVER have I been involved with a guy that wanted the same thing in our relationship that I did. The other convincing factor - he cares and is concerned for me. He calls to ask how my day is going. He expresses an interest in my life and what's going on. He hounds me about doing too much for the guys at work and how that can lead to them taking advantage of me. No one has ever expressed this kind of concern for my being.
Aww. But he is a man. And he does tend to think with one head more than the other. And he likes to tease and flirt and get me riled. He'll call and say things to me, while I'm at work, that gets my face all red. He'll email and tell me all the things he intends to do once we get to finally be together. So, not only is he caring and protective of me - he's turned on by me. And even though he can be somewhat trashy in talk - it's not the slimey kind of dirty talk that the guys have done in the past. It's hard to explain.
Regardless, Chad is my ray of light. His emails and calls brighten my day. And even though other guys have had that effect on me - none of them managed to do it so effortlessly and powerfully as he does. So that has to mean something, right?